As time passed in my sobriety, many other emotions presented themselves that I had to surrender -resentments, boredom, and fears for example. Over time, by not resorting to my “drug” to medicate these emotions – but turning to God, I found a great calm come over my mind that I had not experienced before. I also felt more interested and satisfied by everyday small things – I felt connected to God. This freedom and this connection was the greatest medication I could hope for – but with no regrets, no coming back-to-reality, no self-destruction. Only peace.