I am going to repeat what someone in recovery have said – “when you are sober you feel better – you feel anger better, you feel resentment better, you feel depression better, you feel anxiety better” But though this there is an underlying peace when working the program. For me, I receive little vistas of various new ways of being and then they fade, but each day I try to spend more and more time in that new way of being and find more and more room in my heart for the good. Training my mind and heart is kinda like training a puppy to come back on task when it is prone to wander – it takes patience and consciousness of God, what it feels like to wander from Him, and a willingness to come back to Connection. There are times when I feel as empty or anxious as ever and I have to remind myself of the concept of progressive victory – and practice patience!
