Do you feel a need to escape?
T.V. Series are super fun and give a bit of escape for my wife and I from time-to-time.
In my recovery, I did start noticing that the same emptiness that sometimes invited me to escape into tv – especially when by myself – was the same emptiness that invited me into lust. I wanted a bit of escape from being in my head and have that emptiness filled…again, especially when I was tempted to watch tv all by myself, rather than doing it as a bit of bonding with family or friends. Does that sound familiar?
Now I recognize this emptiness as a God-Hunger, and when I am tempted to watch T.V. or otherwise fill it with media sensation (and even the news is sensation-oriented anymore) I often stop and kneel down and try to connect with God and his will for what he would have me do at the time, and I listen.
Whenever I do this I almost always find a sudden clarity on something important that needs to be done and a motivation and impulse to go that different direction – one that ends up being fulfilling to me and actually helpful to others.
Has any one else experienced this simple transformation to the much more satiating feeling God offers – when otherwise tempted to escape into media?